Friday, May 1, 2009

To my boys, my twins...

You both were dreams and visions of love
Inside me, I had you both, and thanked God above.

I prayed and prayed that you'd both be healthy
I'd give up everything including being wealthy.

Nick on my left and Kenny on my right
It's a feeling of having twins that was so in sight.

A dream that came true, but with different results
I cant help but feel that it was somehow my fault.

A mom is supposed to keep their children safe and warm
I couldn't do that, the day you both were born.

I cried the night I saw both of you, you looked so unreal
that my Nick and my Kenny I could no longer feel.

Nick you put up a fight to stay here with us,
but God wanted you close and you didn't put up a fuss.

Daddy and I held you close the day you went away
I love you, I love you, is all I could say.

I told you to look for your Uncle John in Heaven
I bet he wouldn't believe that we actually had seven!

Kenny would miss you with all of his might
but we know that you are with him throughout his whole life.

It would have been fun to celebrate with both on your day
the birthday of my boys, my twins I should say.

Kenny is our miracle, he is our little guy,
I wouldn't trade him for anything, I would much rather die.

God chose this life for us and for him,
We just have to have faith that his light will not dim.

The problems and issues with you, that we have to see
will make us better people, I think that's the key,

So as we celebrate your birthday, yes I am happy but sad,
I want you both to know that I am trying so so bad!

See, I prayed for my twins that they would make it through the days
and now I see that they have, just in very different ways.

I am a mommy to twins, one in Heaven and one on Earth
How lucky am I to have actually giving my twins birth!

Our family has an angel and his brother he watches over,
It's better than finding a lucky four leafed clover!

Kenny, I look up to you, you are such a strong little guy
You lost your other half and you couldn't even say goodbye.

As We celebrate your birthday(s), I want you to know,
I will be with you and love you and help you to grow.

We will make it, I promise, all of us together
That's why God gave you both to our hearts, forever!

It wont be easy, but we all will help you through
With hospitals, therapy's and anything new.

My love for you started when God gave you to me
And it will never end, not from now till eternity

So Happy Birthday to my twins, Mommy loves you more than ever
I promise to love you, think of you and be here for you, now and forever!

Happy Birthday Kenny and Nick...Mommy and Daddy and your brother and sisters loves you both so very much.

Kenny, I will help you become the strong, loving and successful person that you are meant to be. You are an amazing little boy who puts a smile on my face every day. No matter what happens, we will be here for you and help you through any obstacles that you may face in life. You are my miracle and would do anything for you and your sisters and brother.

And for you Nick, my angel, I pray that you are with Uncle John and Great Grandparents and others that have been part of our lives. Until we meet again my love, Keep the lights going on and off coming! I hope Uncle John is taking care of you! I miss you so heart is broken because your not here. Your Daddy, sisters and brothers keep me going and my faith that you are with Uncle John and Grandmas and Grandpas help me make it though the days!

And to my Daughter, Morgan who is making her First Holy Communion this Saturday...
Morgan, I love you with everything and more. You are my little browned haired, Italian of the family! (Grandma Chiaverini would be proud)LOL~!!! I am so very proud of you. You will now be receiving Jesus, something that you have been taught in school and here at home. God bless you my sweetheart. I love you, have a very beautiful day.

My son, Tony will be serving as alter boy at the communion which will make it even more special! This weekend is going to be a good thing! I am so happy that God gave me my children. To have Kenny and Nick on May 2 is something very special (yet sad).

I don't usually go all "number-ie" but these numbers are very ironic...almost it was meant to be....

We had 5 children = May (5)
Then we had our twins = the 2nd day of May (2)
total kids 7 = the year...2007


Here's another one...No one can say that Gina wasn't supposed to be here....

We had 7 children = July (7)
We had 7 children + added one (Gina) = the seventheenth day (17) (one & seven)
So total kids 8 = the year 2008

Oh yeah...God does beautiful things!


Anonymous said...

Okay, I cried! Darn you! Love you!

Your twin sister,

Lisa C. said...

Your story touched me, you are an extremely strong person. and GOD Does do amazing things. We're not all numberie either, but my husband and I both have the same number of letters in our first names and middle names... Both have birthdays in November (and Anniversary too)... We tried to conceive for 13 years and when we finally gave up... We get lucky... and the girls were born in November also.. GOD is miraculous.. and you are an inspiration!!!

J9 said...

dang that was awesome M!

Diane said...

i'm visiting from the fort. i wanted you to know that i can relate in some way with you - both my daughters and myself are on the autistic spectrum, and my youngest also has CP. so, i know what a tough gig that can be.

i love this tribute to your children. happy birthday to both your little angels!

Beth in NC said...

I came over from Fort Thompson. I watched your video over there and my heart really goes out to you and your family.

God bless you all. You are in my prayers - so is your precious Kenny.


Daphine said...

Hi Michele,
I came from Fort Thompson. I watched your video and was touched deeply by your story.

I am praying for your sweet and precious family.

Blessings to you!

Kathy said...

Happy Birthday to Kenny & Nick! God Bless all of you!

Dot O said...

I came by way of Fort Thompson. YOu are in my prayers, especially on the day of your daughter's First Holy Communion. My parish held their celebration of this sacrament last Saturday. What a wonderful, wonderful celebration and I am sure there are joyous festivities going on up in heaven with your son and all of your loved ones looking on.

God bless you.

April said...

I'm popping by from Tim's blog. Just wanted to let you know that I've been deeply touched by your story...I'm praying for all of you! God bless!

Susan Helene Gottfried said...

Tim at the Fort said to come over, and so I did. I'm really touched by this post ... but I just can't believe that YOU did something wrong, to have had this outcome. Rather, I think you did a lot of things right. Like love.

Lexie said...

Happy birthday to your babies. I can not believe that it has been so long since your twin journey started.

Dee said...

I'm sitting here in tears!

Happy Birthday guys!

Jenny said...

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