A NICU reunion

Its been over seven years since Kenny spent 129 days in the NICU...sure, he's been hospitalized several thousand times since, but to spend a few hours with these wonderful doctors and nurses that have taken special care of our little guy...who basically kept him alive...after all these years, I am so grateful to them. Even after all these years, I basically consider them family! They loved Kenny (and Nick) so much, they cared for him...kept his little lungs breathing, saved him from numerous infections and fed him when I couldn't....I am forever and deeply grateful.

So.much.fun!

 

Gina was in Heaven with a Nertle Turtle aka: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles

 

 

 This is one of Kenny's old nurses...

 Kenny holding up a preemie diaper...which btw...was HUGE on him!

 Mommy and Kenny (don't look so thrilled Ken...haahaaahaa)

 crafts!

 the welcome table...

 

 

 decorating cupcakes!

 

 

 props for the photo booth

 Kenny and Dr.Collin

So thank you again MetroHealth Medical Center and all the wonderful doctors and nurses...for everything you've done and continue to do for Kenny and our family!  

Cant wait for next years reunion!!!

Sunday, June 3, 2007

Kenny is 1 month as of yesterday, and he is not doing good.
UGH!!! These past 2 days have been, what they call it, one of the "lows" that everyone talks about in the NICU. Kenny needed a blood transfusion yesterday and they found that he had an infection somewhere in his little body. They are not sure where it is, so they stopped his feeds and put a catheter in him. They also did a chest x-ray and a brain scan which, as of yesterday, came back clear. This morning, I called over to the hospital, and he needs ANOTHER blood transfusion! They raised his ventilator settings some too. Please pray for him everyone.
My poor little baby.

latest update on our little Kenny

Well, as of this morning....HE IS DOING GREAT!!!! They are giving him steroids and that seems to be doing him wonders! He is down to 54% oxygen on his ventilator and is pulse oxygen level is at 97%. So these last 2 days, he has been getting stonger and stronger! Thank you all for all the prayers and support. We are still definitly not out of the woods, but at least I can breathe a sigh of relief for the time being. Oh...they also did a head ultrasound on him to see if he had any brain bleeds...and his little brain is perfect! My little Kenny is a fighter and he has all of you to thank, for all the prayers and also his angel twin, Nick who is with him, strengthening him....always.

My bad day today

Boy oh boy...seems like this is going to be an on going thing....This mornings update on Kenny: They put him back on 100% oxygen (up from the 66% yesterday). He had a bad night last night. They are putting him on a morphine drip because he has been agitated and slightly in pain from the oscillator pulsating his little lungs and body. Guys, I don't know how much my little baby can take of this. I am having a HORRIBLE day today. Unable to stop crying. I feel bad because I am not pregnant anymore, and I should STILL be. I feel bad that I cant feel my boys kicking me anymore, and they should still be. I feel bad that I don't have them here, at home, with me...they should be. I cant hold, touch or even kiss my babies..one forever and the other for a long time. I feel bad that I will never know what Nick would look like or act. I feel bad that all these "life-saving" treatments will do more harm to my little guy than good. I am trying to keep telling myself that it wasn't my fault that they were born early, but it's not working. I carried them, I should of been able to keep them in me for a few more weeks. What did I do so wrong in life for all of this to happen to me and Tony. I am having a really hard time with everything that has and is happening to us right now. Why couldnt God just let me have a miscarriage way back in December, when I thought I was having one! Sorry....I just had to write out my feelings.