So you see how I dread this blockage/changing a tube thing...it not for the faint of heart. I grabbed the new tube packet and thought to myself, "I can do this, I can do this". Syringes the balloon saline out...now it's ready to be pulled out. Nah....nope. Couldn't do it. I totally chickened out. I added new saline to the balloon and figured that I was going to work that blockage out. I suctioned and added warm water...for god knows how long but me with my Italian stubbornness, I got the blockage out! Whew...I got another few weeks of relaxation time before his button needs replacing...I think I'll let the doctor do it.
So as I was saying, this is the start of Feeding Tube Awareness Week. It's to...well...raise awareness. To educate people that feeding tubes are to help. Before Kenny, I had no idea what a tube feed was...the thought of putting a hole in my sons belly and supplement his feeding was catastrophic. I felt guilty that I wasn't doing my job as a mom. He wasn't eating for me and I couldn't comprehend how he went from kinda eating a half jar of stage 2 baby food to not even wanting that. How even a spaghetti O would make him gag and throw up. Why wouldn't my on eat. We were in feeding clinics, occupational therapy and still...age 2...he couldn't chew or swallow without gaging and vomiting. It was finally time...after months of putting off the feeding tube talk, his doctors felt that for his brain to grow and for him to finally start thriving, he needed a tube. They also told me that this was very common in micro preemies. I did everything I could to try to feed him and I was getting upset and wold cry every time I tried to feed him. So The summer of 2010, my son went into surgery for his life saving feeding tube. I was scared to death. It was yet another first that Tony, I and our families have experienced with Kenny in our lives. Thank goodness I had some good friends online who's children had feeding tubes. It has been difficult at times...those nighttime feeds still suck rocks, but the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. He has gained weight and this year has been the first fall/winter that he has not landed in the hospital. I have gotten much support from Facebook and the friends online. Learned tricks of the trade, dos and donts, and felt that we are not alone. We are hoping that one day he will eat enough to be rid of the tube, but in the mean time extremely grateful that we have been blessed with our special needs child and all that he has exposed us to.